Reflection Paper5

At first I wouldn’t mind being one of the “Little Rock Nine” I think I would be honored to do something so historic that would impact the rest of the world and the future generations to come but my opinion would probably change after the first day. I would feel embarrassed to have to have armed guards walk me into school or ever be there in the first place because I think it would be putting more attention on me then there already was. I would want to live my life as peacefully as I could despite all of the arguments and such about my presence. On the bright side having the armed guards provided especially for me and the others to be able to enter the school would make me a tad bit happy because I know that they were sent there to encourage desegregation and send a powerful message. I think I would also feel safer knowing that they are there incase anything were to happen I also think that I would be able to ignore all of the shouts and slurs of the people on the street that didn’t want to see me to go a white school. I know that if I were to fight back physically or verbally that it would be a step in the wrong direction and they would never accept being able to have me in that school. It would be easy to lash out or say the wrong thing to someone and then not only would my life be at even more of a risk but they would get it in their heads that I, and people similar to me, are nothing but barbarians that cannot coexist. If they, however, saw me being civilized and behaving properly maybe they stop being so hateful and at least except the fact that I wasn’t acting like an animal or whatever else they would call me. . I would be there for my education and to try to urge people to see that there is nothing wrong with me and that I have the capability to learn the exact same material and that I have the same capacity to do things just like the others do. I would prove them wrong with my silence, determination, and composure that I am no different than them by no means whatsoever. I would be lying, however, if I said their marks wouldn’t bother me at all, they would make me feel somewhat upset but I would not waver from my goal.